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This song is about not knowing how to ask for help when you are struggling, highlighting the loneliness of hiding a secret from everyone else.

Lyrics and chords:

capo 1 Am, Cmaj7, G6

i don’t know how to ask for help

nevermind, i don’t need the help

cause all I want is to talk to someone 

confess my sins, disappear, and

i make myself smaller on my bed 

the guilt crawls over on my body like a monster

im scared of my parent’s disappointment 

i don’t want them to find out I did this

i don’t know how to ask for help

nevermind, i don’t want to get better 

i know it’s confusing i don’t need you

cause I know my friends aren’t my support anymore now

i don’t know how to ask for help

writing songs is all I do these days 

cause i don’t want the help

but i need it, i’m pleading for an end to this 

i want to kill myself again but i know it’s so wrong

i’m suicidal

don’t want people to care anymore

i’m afraid of the light

not the dark cause I’m used to my own mind

Lyric Analysis:

i don’t know how to ask for help / nevermind, i don’t want to get better / i know it’s confusing i don’t need you / cause I know my friends aren’t my support anymore now

This section describes the helplessness and loneliness I feel when I am struggling. I also sometimes don’t want to recover from mental illness. I feel like my friends aren’t really there to help me.

cause i don’t want the help / but i need it, i’m pleading for an end to this / i want to kill myself again but i know it’s so wrong

Again, I don’t want help most of the time because I don’t want attention and to get better, but at the same time wanting an end to the suffering. Also, I am suicidal because I feel like it is wrong to be this way and I should not live if I am not wanting to improve my condition.

i’m afraid of the light / not the dark cause I’m used to my own mind

This part in the bridge means that I am afraid of changing and that I’m comfortable being sick.